bugger, 3 years and i'm really not doing too well at this, "oh i'll put art work up really soon" deal.
I think the best way for me to start getting my artwork up is by taking requests. so if you have any and think i'm up for it, please do ask. i'll do my best not to disappoint!!!^^
(i will obviously have to limit numbers, but i doubt i'm likely to get a rush of any kind)

in other news, I'm currently involved in the development of an RPG. doing the concept artwork for characters mainly.

I also have a few ideas for a comic. Though i was supposed to be writing and drawing paranoia, for various reasons i'm dropping it. the new one will definitely contain elements and even characters originally intended for paranoia (as long as the other people involved in the project don't mind, but as for that...)

lets see if i can juggle with all this and the million of deadlines i have coming up for uni lol. 4th year is a bitch!

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if you stand and fight for something it's a way to show your strength right?

but sometimes isn't it much stronger to step down and just let it go? no body said being strong was easy.

i've been searching through my artwork lately and some art work of some friends and finally realising what i want to do.

i'm going back to realism. the cartoony stuff is fun and great but i need to re-define and re-discover my own style lol. A lot of people have contributed to this new development, many of which are unaware of it.

it's unfortunate in many ways but i'm a naturally competitive person. it's why i draw so little because it can bring out the worst in me to see that i'm not good enough. but i'm going to try my best. lol i'll get round to thanking him, but jason is prolly the person who made me want to rediscover the realistic art i used to do. I wonder if he'd think it 's weird that i've noted him as an inspiration, but i like to give credit where it's due.

Jason is a very good artist and effortless at it too. Ria is another person. though my style is different, it's inspiring how she does just draw so quickly and off the top of her head. even if all her pictures have something distubingly rude in them... lol i do love that girl

I've always loved to draw, but i've always been too lazy to put anything worth note up here. so i'm going to start doing that with this new attitude. i can only improve through practice.

i hope i can find the old ink portraits i did in college. especially that one of nick. it's probably the best piece i think i've ever done.

(i realise that most of you don't know who jason, ria or nick are, but that's ok... bare with me lol)

I'm going away to japan! in an hour uwaaaaaaaaaa

well yes, so i'm off to japan for a year today. i've not updated this journal in ages, but i thought i'd do it now, because y;know, this is interesting and exciting news. i'll be at the airport in a couple of hours and flyinf off to nagoya airport....

well dubai first and then to nagoya^^

the next time i'm back here i'll be there! w00t

i swear i think i can't suprise myself when i do stupid things and i never fail to amaze myself. point number one i'm a lazy bugger... i can't be arsed to do anything. when i do i go all out^^ cooking for example. i've been living off instant chinese noodles for the past three weeks and toast. so the other day i thought, you know what i'm going to make a nice vege burger from scratch. i got all my salads and made the burgers up and stuff..

i got a pack of buns and when it came to eating i realised that the buns were a little larger than i had thought. it was so big i could hold the damn thing and the bread was so crumbly that it kept falling apart... so i ate my burger wiht a knife and fork. if you looking for a way to keep soemone busy for hours try and make them eat a burger with a knife and fork with crumbly bread... it's murder.

that's not the stupid part... the stupid part is i did the exact same thing all over againa few days later^^

ahhh yeah... such is life

so i've uber lazy, and it's official i am now nocturnal.
my theory is that when you go to uni you become one of two things, alcoholic or sleepp-a-holic... for me it's the latter

I've been through a string of atleast four days without having seen real daylight/sunlight (that is if you actually get sunlight here up in the north of england) because i sleep durign the day when i don't have lectures and i'm usually up all night doing.... nothing...?

i'm lazy as hell, i've been drawing but every picture i've drawn is abandoned for a new one i start, i'm hopeless... shikamaru influence i swear >_<

i'll get something up eventually, i've been trying to adapt my work and what i have up here so far is not a representation of my artwork... i can do better, if i wasn't so damn lazy... right, back to the drawing board then^^